Wednesday, February 22, 2006
juz now nanaSHAKILU told me about JAPSTAR gianess
so FUNNY mann
den got lahh summore DIRTY LITTLE SECRETS
HAHAHA
i got a lot of dirty little secrets wif nanaSHAKILU
daughter and mother isnt it
den she wan to cut my breast lah
stupid little gerl
at last...
i haf found a suitable theme for my ART
and it is TIRED
i draw olredi
submit proposal to ms sim
she said okay
den haf to use the litebox
to trace my drawing
so cool mann
1st tyme use it
the thing is now
i dunno wad suitable background suits it
aiyo
think about it later uhh
juz now i was so damn stress seyy
called my mum using the public fon
use atikah's fon kad
tanx atikah
i spoke to her about the mt ophir thing
i asked her where is the form politely as she took it frm my bag in the morning
then she shouted at me as if i shouted at her
then i shouted at her back
then she say she dun wan to let me go
she tink its useless
waste of tyme
waste money
tink of my safety
of course every other parents oso care abt their child safety
but this is a once in a lifetime experience
she juz aint proud of me
WHO THE HELL AM I TO HER
IM JUZ A PIECE OF TOY DAT SHE CAN PLAY AROUD WIF
if she is worry about th emoney problem
i can settle it uhh
i dun care about her money
I CALLED MY SISTER AFTER DAT
she told me dat she will kol my mum
and try to solve the problem
my mum said i could go at last
I JUZ HAF A COUPLE OF THINGS TO SAY
my mum told noriz mum about my bad attitude
now she haf a bad perception about me
she wont let noriz be frenz wif me
she wont let me tok to noriz on thr fon
doesnt my mum tink about how embarassing issit
to haf sum1 mum tink dat im a bad daughter
i always tot to myself
wen will my mum ever gonna trust me
wen will she b elyk eth eold her
the one i could confide to
my mum alwaes tok to me as if i had done a horrible mistake everyday
wen will she ever let me lead a happy life?
i juz feel lyke there is no need for me to be her daughter if she tinks im a terrible daughter
i tink i dont feel lyke i deserve to be on this earth
*SIGH*
im lucky to haf my besties
ifto haf my siblings
without them i tink life would be really meaningless
tanx guyzz
so dats ol
bye
ps:i m crying wen writing this
xoxo
6:57 PM
