Monday, January 29, 2007
ok well hello .
there seems to be a misunderstanding about my previous post .
i mean the essay which i wrote .
it isnt about me or about any of my friends of course . its just a fictional story with fictional characters . heh .
so yeah i created that essay . heh .
some people are misunderstood by it . for examle azie . heh .
but that post u wrote for me was like wow . and dont delete that post ok zie .
so yeah about today .
today i was hype . so was nana and yasirah .
at first yas and me was like waiting for nana and we get bored eventually .
so we started to shout nonsense .
sorry for those who was shouted by us . heh . it was all for fun ok . heh .
sorry bedah , sec 2 sec and anyone ! heh .
nana also started joining in the shouting with us .
and yes its the three shouting chicks . heh .
so we went on shouting till my voice is like a rockstar . and now it has worsen .
im almost losing my voice . somebody help me !!!!! ok lame . hahaha .
actually im very oh so bored .
so when im bored i will start to write crap .
and when i start to write crap u people will get question mark alll over .
so im gonna end here i think .
so goodnite and tata !
xoxo
9:58 PM
Saturday, January 27, 2007
xoxo
12:50 AM
the biggest mistakepeople never knew she had a problem . she seem so carefree . she is a happy go lucky person no doubt . people always thought she was free from all problems . but little did they knew there were more to her or should i say the true side of her . only i knew the true side her of her . the bad side . she told me all . she told me about her life . how shatterd her life was . how was her life at home and how was her so called wild life . i was quite disappointed in hearing her stories but i stil put up hopes on her cause i knew she could change . lets not beat around the bush and tell her life story .
her once happy family was wrecked . all was going haywire suddenly . she was confused on how fast it was happening . she wasnt prepared for this at all . the constant verbal fighting and sometimes it could turn abusive at home . shattering of glasses and verbal fighting were the music that were constantly played at home . she was tired of it . she couldnt tolerate it till one day when she decided to run away form home . this run away was not the ordinary run away that she had . she didnt exepect it will turn out to be the biggest regret in her life . her true friends always advise her that running away isnt the solution to the problem but in fact it was adding another problem . all those advices that she got eventually fell on deaf ears . they kept telling her she had strong willpower but she kept denying it . she knew she was not wise in making decisions all this while . she just knew it . her friends told her not to disappoint her but eventually she did it . and only they knew what it meant .
she did it . she made herself drunk to drown all her problems eventhough she knew it willl only be temporary . she took that thing . the thing that was wrong in the eyes of law . and thats drugs .
she knew it was wrong but she still did it . she was being so selfish at that time . not thinking of her parents or younger siblings . how it will affect them deeply . the look in their eyes when they got to know that her beloved sister whom they looked up to as a rolemodel did it . she just didnt think of it . how vicious could she be . but what could she do , the things that she already did cannot be undone . it could just be a lesson to be learnt .
so people this is a story i wrote . fictious ok .
give ur comments and rate it please .
the ending seems to be hanging cause i leave it up to ur imagination on what will happen next .
thank you for reading .
xoxo
12:12 AM
Monday, January 22, 2007
ok well hello and welcome .
i want to post pictures but feel kinda lazy .
so it all depends on how i feel ok .
yesterday was quite fun .
eat eat eat eat and more eating .
it was all on the house.
it was on my generous brother of course .
spend $60 on eating . wow ! heh .
so we ate satay , mee goreng , hokkien mee , goreng pisang , gado-gado , ice kacang and prata .
seriously it was like 12 people eat . ahaha .
we ate at sembawang satay club if u are wondering .
we ordered all of the mee large .
30 satay stick . 3 plates of gado gado . 2 pratas . 5 goreng pisang and 2 ice kacang .
sumpah banyak .
stomach can explode seh . but it was all good food . heh .
i relli dont understand my father u noe .
he always liek act good when dered my sisters family .
and when we are back home , hes like nonsense .
only god noes wad he's like at home .
stop putting on an act lah eh . 2 face . ok i noe it may sound bad but its the fact . and i have to relli get it off my chest .
say whatever u want a mean ungrateful daughter or whatsoever .
i dont care .
i remember asking my brother , "abang , when is this all gonna end"
he answered "someday , who noes "
im quite sad to actually face this kinda situation . it relli sucks .
and and u noe wad my brother said yesterday night before i sleep .
he actually said " be strong ok " like out of the blue .
i felt touch by those three words and actually kinda cried abit .
it may sound emo or stupid but its true ,
u will feel the same way if u were to be in my shoes . so yah .
treasure ur family before it falls apart ok kids .
my brother and i are relli trying not to be affected by this so yah thats it abotu family .
so remember what i say ok .
treasure them before the happinness goes away .
bye !
ps:they can take anything from you , but they will never succed in taking your inner peace .
xoxo
8:02 PM
Friday, January 19, 2007
hello .
i have just learnt a new word form wawan .
and that is recalcitrant .
it means bad , rebellious and stubborn .
cool right the word .
yeah .
so today my mum cooked a decent meal for the first time in weeks i think .
she cooked her signature dish and that is her nasi ayam .
its very scrumptuous i should say . ceh .
ok just now ncc was fun but boring at some part .
pt was fun because of me . ehem ehem =)
they were all like hyper . i mean super hyper .
yeah . so to summarize it all . its fun .
tomorrow going to openhouse for the polytechnics .
should be with azie and nana and yas and mai i think .
anyone wanna tag along ? sms me ok .
ok bye !
xoxo
10:04 PM
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
well hello .
im now bored . and i mean real bored .
stuck at home .
well maybe my brother is right .
everything has like took a turn for the worse in this family .
firstly is about my parents . well u noe .
secondly is about my brother .
his relationship and stuff .
well me ? only suzie and nana noes .
thanks suzie for being dere for me although i kinda disappoint u . and i noe im a fool for it .
thanks nana for cheering me up and being my listening ear .
thanks all .
sorry azie for the mistake just now .
and sorry to azilla also . pai seh eh .
ps:im feeling so fucked up . very so so so .
xoxo
9:52 PM
Saturday, January 13, 2007
hello .
as you can see im not updating my blog frequently like i always did .
well this week busy with ncc stuffs .
cca openhouse was so so lah .
suzie epah and me had this bad feeling since the rehearsal thingy .
and it did happen . we have psychic powers you know . heh .
ok mepek .
now im in sec 4 and that means i cant let anything get in my way .
sudies is my priority . playing a fool is of course at the bottom of my list .
i really wanna do well . well who dont .
15 points and below is my target. bole ke tak eh ?
i dont know .
my english seems to be deteriorating somehow .
shits . maths is getting tougher . poa teacher sucks big time . physics ngantok .
art takde harapan lah beb . how to get 15 points you tell me ? hmm
my target is as following .
english a1 insyaaallah
maths-b4 ? hmm
comb sci - b4 .
comb humans- b4
art-b4or c5
poa-a1
thats all i guess .
and btw i wont be updating soon yar .
due to certain reasons . and its not techical problem to assure you .
bye .
xoxo
2:05 PM
Monday, January 08, 2007
well what would you do if an ex boyfriend of yours ask for a patch up ?
well he isnt just any other ordinary ex you know .
he kinda like bastard you in all sort of ways when u were with him
last time .
would you take hm back ? would you give him a second chance ?
i have been thinking it over .
i have been asking people's opinion and so on .
some said that its like making another mistake .
some said that he just don't deserve my love .
i guess i won't be giving him any second chances .
cause he just thought thats patching up with me is as simple as that .
well it isn't . i guess he just still dunnoe where the mistake lies .
ok enough about that love shits .
talk about family .
mum + dad = constant verbal fighting .
conversationdad : awak kalo dah benci kiter ckp aje . tak paya nak simpan2 lah . tak paya nak buat muka masam u . awak pikir kiter bodo pe !mum : sape ckp kiter benci awak . awak memang slalu gini lah . main tuduh kiter sembrg je lah .dad : sape yang tuduh ni skrg . betul ape !mum:kalo kiter benci awak . dah lamer dah kiter lari dari rumah nie lah .dad : pegi lari sane uh . lagi bagus ape .mum : awak memang slalu gini lah . kalo kiter tak suke dgn hidup kiter , kiter tak balek lah . awak tau tak .dad : sape suruh awak tinggal . jangan balek pun lagi bagus uh .mum : hidup kalo susdah abah kiter takleh slalu ikutkan hati yang panas kiter aje . kiter kene banyak bersabar .dad : awak nak ajar kiter pulak ape nie . kiter tak paya kene ajar lah eh .mum : nie bukan nak ajar ke ape . awak dengar kiter dulu .dad : yelah . pape lah . kiter berpisah lagi bagus lah !mum : ape nie awak . dad : dah lah malas nak bebual dgn awak .thats like the scenarioo in my home now .
i try to concentrate on my studies caause my o level is nearing .
but sometimes i will cry hoping that things will be happy like before .
so cherish the happy times of your family before its gone
"pain is part of pleasure"
xoxo
7:08 PM
Monday, January 01, 2007
ok i would like yo wish everyone a VERY
HAPPY NEW YEAR !how time flies .
with a blink of an eye 2006 have come to an end and 2007 is already beginning .
ok maybe not with a blink of an eye .
maybe with thousands and millions of blinks . heh .
so what have i achieve for 2006 .
well i have gotten 9
th in class for my end of year examinations . im so proud of myself . heh .
so that position in class got me that 120 bucks shopping spree from my brother . thanks bro .
and and . i have passed my maths for like 1sst time since sec 2 rite yas .
and congratulations for me and yasirah yasin .
and thanks to mr syed and my brother for coaching me and encouraging me .
what more did i succeed ? hmm .
oh ya . i frequently get top for poa . a1 lah beb .
so thats all i think i have succeed academically .
so generally i have managed to learn the bascis of moonwalking and stuffs .
thanks eh sume .
and.........thats all i think .
attitude wise ,.. hmm . i think its still the same old me . hehh .
so heres my 2007 resolution . just to keep thats tradition going on . hehe .
- change my attitude and stop all the nonsense .
- improve more on my maths and get a1 for english .
- get 15 points and below for o levels . insya allah .
- don't spend most of my time on computers .
- get a job at starbucks after o levels .
- draw better ! hehh
- hope that all the 6 wishes come true .
the year 2007 really welcome me in a bad way .
i was down with a high fever i guess . is the temp 39 considered high ?
well kental kan . so i was not that hype .
wanted to take the picture of fireworks but den camera terus mati . kental .
so thats all i guess . bye !
xoxo
10:39 PM
